Yesterday I had so much fun during my acting class. We did a 5 people scene from "Friends" and it was just cool. I felt we worked really hard and even though coach was on our case nonstop it was totally great. I loved every minute of it because I felt we really accomplished something and had some little successes for ourselves. For example I played the role of Phoebe and it is very hard for me to be silly and a bit crazy around others. It is easy for me to do that around family and close friends but people I don't know that well make it more an obstacle for me. :O It is kind of weird how different we are around different people, right? Anyway we did the scene over and over again and in the end I was really getting more and more comfortable and was able to step out of my comfort zone a little bit. :) It felt great. :)
What's also crazy is, it really is hard to talk to people about my excitement and passion for acting who don't have anything to do with it or are not interested at all. There am I totally happy with things and my face lights up literally when I talk about it and there is not much interest at all or I get some serious reality-check. It is kind of sad because I want to share this happiness with others but it's sometimes impossible to make them see it how I see it and what joy it brings into my life. I can't even describe it but this is truly the person who I am and it helps me so much to enjoy life. I think we all need something that keeps us going and yes I do understand not everyone likes the same things but it just hurts me a bit when I want to share things with family and friends that are important to me and they don't really seem to care. :(
Oh well I did notice though (coming from Germany) how different germans and americans are. Americans are so much more open, interested and excited for others when it comes to going for a dream and that way much more understanding too. Maybe that's why I feel home here because I realize that more and more and have come to the conclusion that I truly belong here and that I am in some ways "American" by heart. :)
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